Wednesday, November 01, 2006

Let it shine your way.

The clock is now 00:23 AM. The 31:st of October has just ended. I had a good day - a friend of mine woke me up with tea and breakfast on the bed, and I got presents. Yes, it was my birthday. I went to school, and when I came home I was planning on eating dinner with that very friend. When we arrive at the restaurant all of my best friends are sitting there. A very nice surprise. We dined and had a great time.

Which put me into conflict. I don't know why, but I don't really care for my birthday. Generally they have been nothing special, and I'm accustomed to feel that way. I felt the same today, which is really sad since these fantastic people really showed that they care for me and wanted to celebrate me. And, well, I didn't know how to react. I still don't. I try to be happy, but it is just a strange conflict within me. Which is sad, since I had a fantastic time. I'm semi-afraid that the people that do these fantastic things for me think I don't appreciate it. Which couldn't be more erronous.

1 comment:

Dez said...

Linus. I don't really know what to say. But here goes.

Try and enjoy your birthday, maybe not as a special day that's all about you, but as a day just like every other day. Not having ever met you in person I can't really say if you're a bright and cheerful person normally. But from what I've seen online you're very much that.
In general I'd guess you really like being alive and being able to do the things you do. Don't let your birthday change any of that. Use it as a day to hang with friends you might not get to see all the time. Use it as a day to just relax and realize that you're lucky to be alive. And blah blah blah blah.

I dunno if what I just said was at all intellegable, but I hope you can wrest some meaning or positive mnessage from it.


/me goes back to playing with little plastic briks and being a goofball.

Oh, did I mention Happy Birthday?